May 18, 2016 11 Comments Uncategorized

A Beau-less Vacation??

Why I may be planning a family vacation without members of my family.

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Chad and I have been talking about wanting to get back to the beach with the fam…aka our happy place. And aside from where and when to go, is the question of who to take.

Let me back up a second.

I love my kids a whole, whole lot. Like probably not a normal amount. But I am constantly dreaming of ‘getting a break’ and taking a vacation…or night out… or trip to Target, without them. BUT. Seriously the second I leave them, I want to turn right around and be right back with them!!! What is that?!?
It’s a crazy train yoyo that my husband doesn’t quite seem to understand. {and honestly I don’t understand it either}. I’m hoping maybe this is a mama thing and that I don’t need to be institutionalized later down the line…
Anyway, my first choice is always to take my kids whenever we take a trip. Until we get there, then I sometimes wish we’d left them behind ? they are TODDLERS and that equals a lot of work on vacation.

And I am ok with work…
But then there is Beau.

Have you ever met an 18 month old boy?
Now I can’t speak for all, but mine is on a constant death mission. Like, looking daily for ways to injure and kill himself.Down the stairs head first? Totally. Licking the outlets? Well obviously! Crawling back behind furniture that is too heavy for me to move and retrieve him? Daily. Putting every Lego and Barbie shoe he can find in his mouth? Uh huh. See this fun jump-jump we got you to play in? Oh wait, you would rather run as fast as you can in the other direction and into oncoming traffic. Trying to cannonball into the deep end of the pool? Well if Grant can
You get my drift.
Kid hates a highchair. Hates a stroller. Is totally over his car seat. Basically hates all form of “stillness” or “restraint”. Doesn’t like to play on the iPad yet {what a wonderful stage that is when the learn to love it}. Can’t quite say what he wants, or do what he wants himself.
We are knee deep in a stage of “non-stop, on the go, constant supervision and thinking he is bigger than he is”.


Now don’t get me wrong. We are also in the stage of big hugs, cuddly mornings, wobbly steps {that T-Rex walk…I die}, nicknames for the sibs {lala and bub}, new words, baby bellies, chubby feet and EXCITEMENT. And I love every {honestly…I mean most} moments I have with him.

But traveling with him sounds MISERABLE. Like majorly.
I am such a mix of mama guilt over potentially not taking B with us, and knowing what a fun time we would have doing things the bigs could do…staying out all day, skipping naps, playing in the ocean, building castles, eating out ?.
I feel like I have to make a choice between a fun trip for the bigs {and honestly chad and I} or a trip for all of us, that has me tired even thinking about it.

And seriously people,when I started typing this, I was dead set on leaving Beau with the grandparents and having an relaxing vacay {because when you are used to chasing a baby all day, a 3 and 5 year old feel like major relaxation} . Buuuuut as I type this, he is literally hollering “mama” in the sweetest voice and clinging to to my legs giggling as he thinks it funny to stick his hands in and out of all the holes in my jeans.

and I mean, how can I leave him behind??? Omg I love him.
Do you see the psychotic pendulum I am constantly swinging on?!
So, not sure what we will do. Just throwing this out there, really for advice {tho likely for some judgement too}. And to see if any of you have any fav family beach spots you’d like to share! Always down to try a new place. Seriously, help a sister out!